Saturday, July 7, 2018

arrival

those years, they broke you 
the days you weren’t sure
if you would ever walk again 
the tears, they washed you 
as your heart broke, 
and the light and love all spilled out 
not knowing if you’d ever get it back 
as you let go of your life 
and your brother
and everything good 
there were moments you didn’t think
that you would ever talk again. 

the pain, shattered into pieces
it glittered like glass
and turned to something new 
and you kept walking
lonely, but not alone
you didn’t have the strength
to carry the anger, the bitterness
thank god for surrender
thank god for rock bottom,
where we can let go  
and be empty enough, 
to take it all in 
the love of your friends
your mothers laughter 
& the words of your father 
so rightly timed
and the hurt, beautiful family
both heartache and kindness
its funny to sort through 
that tangled mess. 
the imperfect love we’re given,  
it’s really love.

i know it still hurts 
and i can’t imagine 
just what that’s like 
the road that you walk 
it’s bumpy, and it’s beautiful 
and it shapes you anew,
imprinting deeply 
it made you who you are. 

but there’s been this thing,
mysterious as a bird
a quiet prayer 
an expectation, 
so brave, so hopeful
hidden inside you
few words 
not overshared, 
a pearl that cost so much 
it will not be trampled. 
an expectation, a dream 
you saw something in the future 
you couldn’t put your finger on 
just what it was
or who it would be  
but you waited for the day
that it arrived. 
the joy, and the fear 
and the shock was of new love 
life unraveled so quickly 
a heart that is happy,
and still healing, still beating 
accepts this gift 
you were ready for the day, 
when he arrived.




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