Friday, February 24, 2017

It's never enough

It's never enough 
She said 
you have it once, 
And you want it again 
And the happiness is fake 
there's a sense of sadness 
In the numbing madness 
The pain is there 
Inside my heart
And coming down
Is the hardest part 

Monday, January 30, 2017

I can't live this way

I can't live this way 
She said 
My body is tired 
of the heavy loads 
the winding road 
was meant to be walked 
steady and free
not running on empty 

Monday, December 19, 2016

Navy Green

You were a sky
like the Fourth of July
When we first met
I spoke for the first time 
And you heard me 
When I cried the first time, 
you kissed me 
When I left for the first time, 
you missed me 
I was a shield 
tightly guarded 
in self preservation 
But you, 
You were an open door 
You wanted to throw
your arms around the world 
You cried about the things 
That I didn't even notice  
And you wrote about the things 
I couldn't even see
you saw colors like navy green

But life happened 
It came in like a wrecking ball
And broke every window 
in your hotel heart 
I've watched you fall apart 
It's slow and it's pretty 
It's not very noticeable, 
unless you look closely 
The cracks in your heart 
Are the fault lines the threaten 
The very earth might give way 
So I pray for the day
That you cry and you say 
I can't live this way

October Wind

What is the color 
of wind in October 
what would you call
The sound
of a baby's laugh?
it has the strength 
of all the fountains
in Kansas City 
but it's gentle 
like October wind 

What would you say
to make him turn this way 
what name do you call 
the one 
who made babies laugh 
I'm dying of thirst 
I'll drink anything first 
all the fountains 
in Kansas City 
but he's gentle 
like October wind 

"If you knew who I was
You would ask for a drink 
and I would give you living water."

Thursday, December 8, 2016

Growing Up

Newly born 
I felt like an infant among adults 
Small and weak, in a tall, strong crowd 
The world was brand new 
And I cried so hard
Pain and joy, mingled into one 

Thank you for your patience, 
As I learn to walk
I fall, and fall again, and you help me up 
You call me forward, hands outstretched 
I don't feel ashamed 
Because you're my mother,
and I'm learning to walk 

Thank you for your eyes  
As I learn to run
I trip, and fall hard, and you help me up 
You look me in the eyes, and call my name 
I don't feel ashamed 
Because you're my father 
and I'm learning to walk 

Newly born 
I am a child among children 
Faithful and trusting, in a tall, noisy crowd
This world, our temporary home 
And I cry so hard
Joy and pain, mingled into one 

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Miracles

I was crippled 
Shriveled and sad
But you commanded me 
Shook me off my sickbed
I picked up my mat and walked 

I was dangerous 
reckless and angry
Self destructive, at the tombs 
But you showed me mercy
Clothed me and calmed me 
I was made clean 

I was born blind 
and utterly sinful 
but you opened my eyes
washed me clean 
To glorify You 

I was sick 
Mentally ill 
Heartbroken, still 
But you called me daughter 
Wrote in the dust 
And sent me, forgiven 

I was dead 
wrapped in grave clothes
The one you loved 
You wept in sadness 
Then called my name
And walked me home 

I was crucified 
A thief next to you 
miserable shame 
I called your name 
Remember me, Lord
Nothing to give 
and still you forgive 
dying, I Live

Monday, November 21, 2016

Birth

I took my first breath
a cold, sharp gasp
bursting into the world
terribly bright and warm 
I made a fist 
around your finger 
holding on
The first words I heard
Were yours 

I took my first breath
a dark, smoky feeling 
drowning in the world 
wonderfully painful and dark 
I made a fist 
gave you the finger 
hanging on
all the words I heard 
Were mine 

I awoke 
and took my first breath
a cold, startling gasp 
breaking into the world 
Terribly bright and new
I make a fist
around your finger 
I hold on tight 
And the first words I hear 
Are yours