Wednesday, August 12, 2020

do you know we’ll fall in love

 you walk softly

“follow me, i want to show you something”
dark night, marked by bright lights
white moonflowers, they seem to glow
overlooking the city
that i grew tall in
the city you call home,
even if for a moment

do you know we’ll fall in love
do you know what the next year holds
a dark day, a painful face
then love that eclipses,
overshadows
then brightens this
and opens the way

you walk softly
you are more excited &curious 
than anyone else in the world
follow me, i’ll show you something
lilacs bloom, overlooking the highway 
running through the city, 
that you grew up in
the smell is overwhelming
your eyes are bright

do you know, we’re still falling in love
do you know all the things,
the next year holds
i’d walk through anything
when it hurts, when it’s bliss
i’ll take on anything,
with you, my love 

i was so soft that you could crush me

 i was drunk 

i was so soft
that you could crush me, 
if you wanted to
i was see through 
and i listened to you
you pushed on the bruises
you poked holes in every argument
you poured salt on my wounds
vinegar, you said it was cleansing 
that truth means love
hard love 

and i would rather
take a blade to my wrist 
than your fucking judas kiss

fits into no box

 i don’t give a fuck

about your well meaning
sweetly intended
light hearted prayers
when you ignore the truth 
when you turn a blind eye
to the pain, to the dark deep black 
that fits into no box
that cannot be understood 

i do not smile for you

 i will not open up

to just everyone

you will miss me 
you will hate me 
i do not smile for you
laugh for you
not warm or kind or story telling 

i do not exist in your boundaries 
i do not follow rules

i’ll follow my gut 
i’ll laugh in your face
and i’ll laugh at the fool
who trusts somebody

i do not exist in your boundaries
i walk within my own fortress
i will let few into my inner circle.  

depth

they say the depth of my sorrow 
could be the depth of my joy 
and it runs deep.