God

i have tried

to wrap my head around your splendor

I have tried 

to fit you in my mind 

I have swam 

the depths of your devotion 

and I have met

the creatures in your ocean 

I’ve obeyed 

succeeded in religion 

measured up 

conceited in my vision 

faith comes through 

though shadowed by control 

I still soak 

and take in all that’s whole 

I have tried 

to earn your very presence 

I have flailed

and drowned in my distortion 

but you keep 

pushing all the borders 

I can keep 

even what I don’t hold on to

I have fought 

and shut down my expression 

I’ve been blind 

controlling my depression 

all this time 

you’re every which direction 

if I stop 

I see you’re so beyond this 

May 11