swallowed up

you’re near

you’re here 

when i wake in the night 

hands shaking 

my prayer is quiet

it’s tears and it’s pain

im scared of the dark

im scared of my name 

i reach out

i am hot and cold 

i am right and wrong 

mostly wrong 

i need your help 

and when i say that

i don’t mean i need 

your assistance

i mean i need you 

all of your saving

all of yourself 

i need your arms 

to wrap around my sorrow

i need swallowed up 

in grace