Birth

I took my first breath

a cold, sharp gasp

bursting into the world

terribly bright and warm 

I made a fist 

around your finger 

holding on

The first words I heard

Were yours 

I took my first breath

a dark, smoky feeling 

drowning in the world 

wonderfully painful and dark 

I made a fist 

gave you the finger 

hanging on

all the words I heard 

Were mine 

I awoke 

and took my first breath

a cold, startling gasp 

breaking into the world 

Terribly bright and new

I make a fist

around your finger 

I hold on tight 

And the first words I hear 

Are yours 

Lungs

I am sin

dust and skin

I open doors and let it in

I ran away and tried to breathe 

But lungs weren't made for skies like these

Born to live and fall apart 

Born to die, and to restart

I walk the line of resurrection

My emptiness for your affection

psalm

The heaviness 

with hands on my temples 

grips my attention 

blurs my focus 

grasping for the heart within 

I hammock in the stillness

sleeping to pass the time 

cradled in darkness 

dreams are pain 

and waking is painful 

memories are real 

life is surreal 

so why am I 

Alone in the darkness

I don't mind the headache 

the migraine is heavy 

sunlight hurts

I cling to the words 

that a man once wrote 

alone in a cave 

cradled in darkness 

I'll sing them again 

and keep on at this 

"my light, my rock

you are my fortress"