Brown Eyes

I believe in your future 

I believe in the sunset ahead of you

the road that's behind you 

Will straighten out

I believe in your voice 

You'll sing again 

Your Brown eyes, warm 

Your fathers grin 

I believe your eyes will cry again 

I believe in the river in your blood 

I believe in the stars that sing above 

You just have to keep on asking, love

July 14th, 2015

I'm sorry I was far away 

I'm sorry I was disengaged 

I'm sorry for the tidal wave 

The pain pressed tightly from all sides 

The darkness finally reached my eyes

and in the mirror, I realized 

a face I didn't recognize 

I held my world inside a fist 

You were a face I wouldn't kiss 

I fell again, only to miss 

the lesson in the mess of this 

I'm sorry I was underage 

I'm sorry I was renegade 

I'm sorry for the price you paid 

The earth was tipping towards you

My life was slipping out of reach 

I tried to fall apart 

But tried to hold it underneath 

I'm sorry I was see through 

I'm sorry I could not break through 

I'm sorry I couldn't carry you 

Family Resemblance

I want to live for you

not just exist, like a lizard in the sun 

but really live 

diving deep 

silver in the river 

splashing and swimming

and flipping my tail 

I want to cry for you 

not just feel sorry 

but rivers inside me 

smoothing, eroding 

the jagged rocks 

I want to feel you 

not momentary emotion 

but earthquakes that shatter 

and shock my heart to life 

I want to find you 

not just a book 

but a path through the woods

blood on my knees 

looking for seeds 

to grow in the garden. 

I want to be you 

not just a friend

Your blood in my veins 

Your words in my mind 

My family, they walk and talk like you 

People will tell me I'm looking like you 

I will just tell them 

It's not me, it's you