Nov(ember) Burning

heavy my shoulders
tell me how you failed and keep failing
teach me of traps and cages
fractured bones and disappointment
chase me down to remind me i'm afraid.

[I will outrun you]

find me in the fields 
plaid jacket, no shoes
favorite mug full of tea
the sun sinks down
i'm drunk on desire
show me your smile 
tell me i'm not made of darkness
i dream while i'm awake 
i fight to the death
i can't change the past,
but you will not change my future.

 you're with me 
you're always the same
you don't change 
just new adventure and fading scars
teach me how to build fires 
show me beautiful maps
with coves and ports
deep wells and bright mountain trails
lift my eyes up from the ground
show me the sky.

Deep October

Roaring eyes, thunder beauty
gaze locked on stormy Father eyes
child of this, you lioness-
sing the drowning dreams to life
like lullabies, new battle cries
paint the swelling fading tide
open saddest prison eyes
bring the children into life.
golden robes, your passion rages
soft in sandals, filling pages-
honey drops on ivory
glimpsing slipping ships at sea
your feet have felt the waterfall
washing tears will always fall
crush the crimson brokenness
darkest earth like glory grips.
bringing bowls of amber sky
sunset spills and children drink
soil softens, grow the seed
like heaven earth inside of me
you are fascination -
lacing lakes
and tracing aches with light
daughter of Eden
turning graves into gardens
till the dirt, broken places
break through the spaces
gather desire,
hold tight to the embers
like bronzing shield walls
and arrows remember
but dare not hide
your softened eyes.
dance at dawn by teeming stream
and fall asleep in forestry
hidden oakwood wandering
to crumble at his feet.
flaming leap from bale to bale
dusk descending, summer veil

little girl, the Lion etching
harvest heart like fire catching -
"hold my hand, I'll show you free
dark eyed wonder-
drink
the
deep."

Pacific Humanity

the sky and the sea 

no definition, merging softly 

horizon hazy

blurred with fog 

why does the sea toss and turn

what terror does it witness? 

what pain has it passed over?

swallow me 'neath the tide

the blueing rise will hide 

my shallow sea legs

(I never could swim)

saltwater stinging

 like medicine burns 

down the desert dry throat 

of the restless weary 

ocean architecture 

pacific humanity ~
 let me wander 

Rain Barrel (september)

colossal things crumble 

when rain falls heavy 

to muddy the streets 

and wash the children

hiding draught and darkness

under watery wings.

to fill the cracks that groan inside

drown the weeds that grow beside

the rain barrel-spilling 

and the rivers running fast. 

open wide your clever eyes

see me standing close by

on soaked soil drinking deep.

my arms are breaking 

bright like glass

my mind is faking in this mess 

let's walk in the stormy downpour

the cloudy kingdom mourns the downfall

each raindrop an ocean, each minute a mile. 

wander to sunset where I'll find 

your smile.

Montauk Map

you are familiar 

like sandals on feet

and the sand in between 

and brightest eyes. 

sweatshirts, and hair in your face-

do you live in this place? 

or are you just visiting. 

the water rises in swells 

drenching my shorts 

all the ships in your ports 

may be sailing- 

but I'm still here. 

I can taste the salt, 

of every new sea, 

with it's watery colors

and ever-y tree 

is a story. 

the other side of the map. 

and the rocks hurt my feet

and the tears in my eyes-

'cause I'm happy.

you know this place, you're a sailboat , I know- 

and this harbor is home, beneath blue sky. 

I could write books about you 

you won't stop smiling 

your hands are cold 

and the tears in your eyes, 'cause you're happy.